If you think it gets easier. Honey, it only gets harder

I used to be that girl he called beautiful And that girl he wanted to be with. He used to be that gay i told all my friends Me and him would end up dating. Now im the girl he calls "friend" and hes the guy i call "buddy". Hes happy with his gf. Im sitting here confused and dazed. How did we end up here?

He used to call me in the middle of the night to tell me he was thinking of me. I used to send him cute pics of me, imagining him smiling when he sees it and says Wow. Now he tells me his problems and i solve them because i care deeply about him. Now im that girl he says has a "guy" personalty. Because i joke around and im not all serious. How did we end up here?

He tells me he "loves" me as a friend and its hard to explain. But i want him to tell me "i love you baby". I used to be that girl he wanted to be with. guess he found someone better. How the fuck did we end up here?

Now im over him and im moving on. Found guys im interested in and laughing at things. Hes the one confused over his gf and other girls. Slumping over what to do. He Goes to me for advice still and all i can say is "do wat u want". Hes the one i lost all my care for. and he still tries to make me care more. He tells me he loves me. and i said "i love you friend" and it makes him feel akward. I lost all feeling for him. and sometimes i cant help but think what may have happened if we were in a relationship but i shrug that thought off. Everyday he waits for me to reply to him on im. But i ignore him. I hope hes sitting there wondering "How did we end up here?"

Girls: dont let a friendship get in a way of ur feelings. TELL HIM HOW U FEEL. or ull end up like me. You will never kno what maybe happen between u and a guy frien. if u like um u like um. u cant stop urself.

Guys: Dont be an asshole. You like a girl , tell her. doesnt matter if u have a girlfriend. Guy's hints are easy to decode like a girls. Dont play games. You may never kno what may happen if u stop being a pussy and tell her.

"i used to be love drunk but now im hungover"

<3 Maria Elizabeth Depontes